Types of Homelessness
Being homeless means being part of an alternative society. There are many aspects of homelessness in our society, including:
• Homeless families.
There are families on the street, sometimes with just a mom, sometimes just a dad, sometimes with both parents. Usually these are families who have fallen on hard times, having lost a job or their housing. Families don’t usually stay on the street very long and can get off of the street with some help from a church or the government.
• Homeless youth.
This is a growing population. Many homeless youth have left their families or foster care homes because living conditions there were unacceptable to them, perhaps from abuse or perhaps because they wanted to live an alternative lifestyle that was unacceptable to their guardians. Usually these kids can get assistance if they want to get off the street, but many are content to live their chosen lifestyle.
• Couch surfers.
This category could be adults or youth, families or singles. These are people who have enough of a support network that they can at least get off the street, but they are people who cannot find a place to live, are usually having a hard time obtaining permanent employment and can receive almost no services or help from churches or the government.
• Chronically Homeless.
This is who we think of as “classically” homeless. They usually have addiction or mental health issues, live in camps around urban areas. These folks have been homeless from a year to forty years, having become hardened by the constant rejection and pity they receive.
Friday, July 4, 2008
Be Real
Interaction Tip:
No matter what kind of homeless person we are dealing with, no matter what issues they are dealing with, they need our understanding, not our pity and not our simple solutions. Let’s try to see the complexity of their situation and to appreciate them as a person, not as a stereotype or as a problem.
No matter what kind of homeless person we are dealing with, no matter what issues they are dealing with, they need our understanding, not our pity and not our simple solutions. Let’s try to see the complexity of their situation and to appreciate them as a person, not as a stereotype or as a problem.
Karma
Everything has a consequence. What goes around comes around, if not now, then later.
Justice is not a microwave dinner. There’s karma, but it is rarely instant.
Most Westerners think that Easterners consider karma to be a good thing. The Hindus understand that karma is a cycle that is better to be escaped. Jesus is the only one who offers us an out of karma while we still live—it is called repentance and forgiveness.
-Questionable Wisdom
Justice is not a microwave dinner. There’s karma, but it is rarely instant.
Most Westerners think that Easterners consider karma to be a good thing. The Hindus understand that karma is a cycle that is better to be escaped. Jesus is the only one who offers us an out of karma while we still live—it is called repentance and forgiveness.
-Questionable Wisdom
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Post Burnout
For the past four years, I've been going through burnout. I think I mentioned this before, and I certainly think that it is something that anyone who is working in a hard-core full time ministry experiences. But I've also felt that I have moved into a "post-burnout" phase. Not that I've changed that much, but the serious fatigue and insane anger/depression seems to have passed.
Or so I thought.
In the past, I have mentally "pushed" inappropriate and difficult thought processes aside. I can have overwhelming urges to look at pornography, and I might stumble, but since that is unacceptable I would push such urges aside. Later, I might have a serious memory problem, but since that doesn't work for my ministry or family, I would force my mind to remember. Then I might have irrational bouts of anger and depression. Again, I would push that aside, and work through it with exercise and meditation.
Until the worst seemed to just go away.
Sure, I would still have some "bad days" and be tired, but at least I'm not afraid of being thrown into a hospital, or whatever.
But the tiredness and fatigue would just get overwhelming. And I do have some physical symptoms-- the low testosterone being primary. And low testosterone could be a symptom of another physical problem. So, earlier this year, my father provided financial assistance to help me discover a deeper problem.
We did a battery of tests and found I had high cholestoral (big surprise, there, he mumbles sarcastically), but no distruption in blood sugar, thyroid, or iron.
We prayed with my family and with others, but there was no immediate help from the Lord for healing.
We went to one doctor and he immediately diagnosed "sleep apnea." But after an expensive sleep study, I just got the results today. It didn't confirm anything. I definately do not have sleep apnea, and the study nor the experience of the staff determined any physical cause. My O2 levels are fine, my heart rate is fine.
I have to say that I am pretty frustrated about the findings because so often my fatigue feels physical-- but recognizing the weight of the responsibilities I sense, perhaps it is all pretty much in my head. Stress, of course, causes physical symptoms, especially over time, but since no physical symptoms can be found I just have to admit to myself that my "post-burnout" phase is nothing of the sort. I'm STILL going through burnout, it is just that my body is being forced to function the best it can.
So we are back down to some combination of fatigue/depression. Im working with my wife and another person in my church to see about breaking down all that I do and seeing if I can share the load and take more breaks.
I don't feel like I or the ministry will collapse if I don't get this taken care of. At least not right away. This is how I DID feel, up until about a year ago when I started taking testosterone and adrenal supplements. But I still have too many days when I am excited about the ministry, but just don't feel like I have the energy to actually do it.
Years ago, when I was working as a shipping clerk at a new company, I had to create a system for them and deal with all that came my way. At first, it was completely overwhelming, all new, and I thought my mind was going to break. But then, over time, I figured everything out and while it was never easy, it was managable.
That's what I thought my ministry in Anawim was. A difficult, new situation, but over time my mind would adjust to the difficulties and the work would be smooth sailing from then on. However, this work didn't turn out that way.
It seems as if my mind is a bubble in a box made of sticks, but no sides. And the bubble has too much air in it, so every time I push the bubble back into the box where I want it to be, the air just pops out somewhere else, and I have no idea where it will pop out next.
I can take care of fatigue, but then I'll deal with anger. I can take care of anger, but then I'll have to deal with overwhelming temptation. I can take care of that, and then I'll have to deal with overwheming depression. If it was just one thing, I could target it and deal with it. But I never know what will come up next.
Perhaps it is because dealing with the homeless and the mentally ill is just too large of a ministry to create a "system" for and so it is always new, and so my mind can never rest. Perhaps I am just never satisfied with what we give, because new needs and people arise and I always want to improve what we offer. Perhaps because there IS no answer that I get depressed, especially (like this year) when I see many deaths and many people who are on the edge of death.
I don't know. But I won't stop. I just need to figure out how I can be the best, most effective person I can be so that I can do the work God has called me to do.
Or so I thought.
In the past, I have mentally "pushed" inappropriate and difficult thought processes aside. I can have overwhelming urges to look at pornography, and I might stumble, but since that is unacceptable I would push such urges aside. Later, I might have a serious memory problem, but since that doesn't work for my ministry or family, I would force my mind to remember. Then I might have irrational bouts of anger and depression. Again, I would push that aside, and work through it with exercise and meditation.
Until the worst seemed to just go away.
Sure, I would still have some "bad days" and be tired, but at least I'm not afraid of being thrown into a hospital, or whatever.
But the tiredness and fatigue would just get overwhelming. And I do have some physical symptoms-- the low testosterone being primary. And low testosterone could be a symptom of another physical problem. So, earlier this year, my father provided financial assistance to help me discover a deeper problem.
We did a battery of tests and found I had high cholestoral (big surprise, there, he mumbles sarcastically), but no distruption in blood sugar, thyroid, or iron.
We prayed with my family and with others, but there was no immediate help from the Lord for healing.
We went to one doctor and he immediately diagnosed "sleep apnea." But after an expensive sleep study, I just got the results today. It didn't confirm anything. I definately do not have sleep apnea, and the study nor the experience of the staff determined any physical cause. My O2 levels are fine, my heart rate is fine.
I have to say that I am pretty frustrated about the findings because so often my fatigue feels physical-- but recognizing the weight of the responsibilities I sense, perhaps it is all pretty much in my head. Stress, of course, causes physical symptoms, especially over time, but since no physical symptoms can be found I just have to admit to myself that my "post-burnout" phase is nothing of the sort. I'm STILL going through burnout, it is just that my body is being forced to function the best it can.
So we are back down to some combination of fatigue/depression. Im working with my wife and another person in my church to see about breaking down all that I do and seeing if I can share the load and take more breaks.
I don't feel like I or the ministry will collapse if I don't get this taken care of. At least not right away. This is how I DID feel, up until about a year ago when I started taking testosterone and adrenal supplements. But I still have too many days when I am excited about the ministry, but just don't feel like I have the energy to actually do it.
Years ago, when I was working as a shipping clerk at a new company, I had to create a system for them and deal with all that came my way. At first, it was completely overwhelming, all new, and I thought my mind was going to break. But then, over time, I figured everything out and while it was never easy, it was managable.
That's what I thought my ministry in Anawim was. A difficult, new situation, but over time my mind would adjust to the difficulties and the work would be smooth sailing from then on. However, this work didn't turn out that way.
It seems as if my mind is a bubble in a box made of sticks, but no sides. And the bubble has too much air in it, so every time I push the bubble back into the box where I want it to be, the air just pops out somewhere else, and I have no idea where it will pop out next.
I can take care of fatigue, but then I'll deal with anger. I can take care of anger, but then I'll have to deal with overwhelming temptation. I can take care of that, and then I'll have to deal with overwheming depression. If it was just one thing, I could target it and deal with it. But I never know what will come up next.
Perhaps it is because dealing with the homeless and the mentally ill is just too large of a ministry to create a "system" for and so it is always new, and so my mind can never rest. Perhaps I am just never satisfied with what we give, because new needs and people arise and I always want to improve what we offer. Perhaps because there IS no answer that I get depressed, especially (like this year) when I see many deaths and many people who are on the edge of death.
I don't know. But I won't stop. I just need to figure out how I can be the best, most effective person I can be so that I can do the work God has called me to do.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Teach A Man To Fish?
Commentary on the famous proverb by Pam Wilson of Operation Mercy:
Teaching fishing and other myths
"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day….
Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."
On an international scale, this poignant proverb has moved hearts, opened wallets and enjoyed widespread popularity in relief and development literature. It correctly identifies the temporal quality of much aid work and demonstrates the need for development beyond the limits of most projects in relief situations. However, this little proverb carries with it inherent assumptions that need to be examined more closely:1
1. It assumes that education is the solution to the problem.
On 17th August 1999, tens of thousands of people lost their lives in Western Turkey as the result of a devastating earthquake. The devastation was not caused so much by the physical impact as it was by poor building construction in the earthquake area. The fact that San Francisco suffered an earthquake of a similar magnitude during the same time period and without loss of life was a painful contrast. Once the initial stage of relief ended, development organisations and foreign governments rushed to provide seminars and training on how to build earthquake proof buildings. These were poorly attended and met with lethargy and even scorn. Why? Turkish contractors know how to build earthquake-proof
buildings. A glance at the provincial building code in the earthquake region reveals a set of rules and regulations equal to that of California's strict codes. The problem is not lack of education - the problem is one of corruption. Profit has became a stronger value than safety.
2. It assumes that it is the outsider who knows the solution to the problem.
Servants in Asia is an organisation born out of a dream that the gospel could truly become good news to the poor. They are brutally honest in their report of their medical work in Manila, Philippines: "The poor asked us to stop our mercy ministries. They argued that much of what we
were doing for them was in fact causing relational and communal breakdown. In other words, the social effect of all our programmes was proving harmful. Our individual approach to health care, in choosing one person over another, was creating jealousy and misunderstandings in the community. Our top down approach was alienating the poor. They did not feel an active part of the health care in the community. They were simply beneficiaries of the process, not managers of the process. They had little to do with its implementation. This demeaned their spirit. So in healing some aspects of the body we made their spirits sick." (Nicholls&Wood 1996:183)
3. It assumes that the man can't live in his environment.
Obviously in this proverb, the fishing teacher has observed a body of water that houses fish and with it the possibility of fishing. By deciding that the man must be taught fishing, the fishing teacher has made the assumption that the man has been unwilling to adapt to his environment.
A similar situation happened in Kenya, where the Masai love to tell the story of Lord Delamare. While visiting in Kenya, he observed the rich grasslands north of Nakuru but couldn't understand why the Masai didn't graze their cattle there. Deciding to kindly provide an example, rather than patronisingly teach them, he spent a significant sum importing English cattle and turning them loose on those grasslands. It was only then that he discovered that the grass in that part of the Rift Valley lacks a key nutrient that results in poor milk production, resulting in the death of most of the calves. This, of course, was something that every Masai boy knew but was never asked. (Myers 1999:144)
4. It assumes that the supply of fish is sustainable.
There was a time in South America when nearly every family grew its own food. If a family went hungry, it was usually due to laziness or carelessness or possibly social evils such as alcoholism. But with the arrival of Western capitalism, the lure of possible wealth has drawn many of these families into growing cash crops such as coffee, cocoa or tea. When the international price of their crop goes down, these people go hungry. Much starvation in parts of the nonwestern world today is due to this phenomenon. Even though this example comes courtesy of multinational corporations, aid workers can produce the same result by the introduction of non-sustainable forms of economic projects.
5. It assumes that those who will be taught fishing (probably already the most poor and
disadvantaged of society) will have fishing rights.
As we have seen in the earthquake example above, corruption is likely a stronger force in a society than justice. And in an even more general sense, powerlessness is a key root of poverty. In urban situations in particular, the poor suffer not so much for lack of cash or goods but from marginalisation and economic exploitation. Because there is only a finite amount of wealth in any country, the powerful can monopolize a majority of it only by denying it to the poor. (Linthicum 1991:37) Development workers cannot assume that providing skills to the disadvantaged opens a door to economic freedom.
6. It assumes that the new fishers have enough economic power to be able to sell their surplus fish.
After all, man does not live by fish alone. Clothing, housing and utility bills, medical costs and other nonperishable goods and services must be obtained, even by those in the most rural of environments. Before teaching fishing, has a market for fish been analysed? If a fisher cannot sell, trade or barter for the other services and goods that he requires, skill in fishing is only a partial solution to his economic problems.
7. It assumes that the environmental condition of the lake will remain constant.
For fishers to keep fishing, there need to be fish! A community whose survival strategy is dependent on a body of water to provide fish in the quanitites to which they have become accustomed is threatened when that body of water can no longer endure the demands placed on it. And when survival is threatened, people generally compromise their values to ensure their survival. One example of this is child prostitution. It is not a value for most parents to sell their daughters into prostitution. However, "when their very survival is threatened, they succumb to this practice as a way of navigating through the moral dilemmas which with survival confronts them." (Bradshaw 1998:68) Shortsighted development work moving into a situation such as this can pinpoint child prostitution as a community value that needs to be changed when the "value" can actually be the effect of the compromising of survival strategies or of poor development work in the first place.
8. It assumes that their traditions allow them to fish..
AIDS workers are learning in many cultures the power of tradition within a society. Is the continent of Africa dying of the AIDS virus because of immorality? Yes and no. In reality, in many places they are dying because of tradition. For example, the people in the Rakai district in northern Uganda believe that a woman is married to a clan, rather than to one man. Therefore, a bride in this culture has sexual intercourse with all of her husband's brothers before she appears in public as a married woman. Development workers who try to discourage this practice have been accused of imperialism and the attempted destruction of the Rakai culture. Unnecessarily so because everyone between the ages of 15 and 50 in the Rakai culture is now dead. Tradition has also preserved famine, discouraged well and dam building and encouraged the starvation of infants in many cultures around the world. Tradition and culture are powerful forces that must be considered before the implementation of any development programme.
9. It assumes that the male in the society is the one who provides food.
The story of the Yir Yoront is a classic example of Westerners ignoring the effect of gender and social hierarchy on culture. In the 1950's, a group of well-meaning Western missionaries introduced steel axes to the Yir Yoront, an Australian aboriginal society. As often happens, it was the powerless of the society - the women and the youth - who had made friends with the missionaries and so they were the initial beneficiaries of these choice tools. However, in Yir Yoront culture, it had not previously been the women and youth who were empowered. It was the elders who kept the stone axes for the communal use of the tribe. There were well-defined
social patterns defining the process of requesting the use of the ax. The authority structuring of the tribe was based on this tradition and this began to break down because of the good intentions of the missionaries. Not only was respect and social structuring affected, but the increased amount of free time resulted in an increase in promiscuity and alcoholism.
10. It assumes that participation is not an important goal.
"Without vision, the people perish." (Prov 29:18) The Hebrew word 'para' translated here as 'perish' means also to be set at naught, to be refused, to be uncovered. And without participation, training and development is hollow, short-lived and lacking in sustainability. What kind of participation? Certainly there is the kind of participation that involves listening to someone present their plan and syllabus for Fishing 101. Real participation, in contrast, begins within a community identifying its own needs, analyzing its own risks and resources and running their own programmes.
--Pam Wilson
Operation Mercy
International Relief Coordinator
Notes:
1Many thanks to Bruce Bradshaw of World Vision and Starbucks for good conversation on this topic, accompanied by good coffee. Much of this article is an augmentation of Bruce's ideas.
Bibliography:
Bradshaw, Bruce. "Empowering Communities to Enhance Survival Strategies." Taken from Sexually
Exploited Children: Working to Protect and Heal. Monrovia, CA: MARC, 1998.
Linthicum, Robert. Empowering the Poor. Monrovia, CA: MARC, 1991
Myers, Bryant. Walking With the Poor. Maryknoll, NY: Orbis Books, 1999
Nicholls, Bruce J. and Wood, Beulah R. Sharing Good News with the Poor. Grand Rapids, MI: Baker
Book House and Carlisle, Cumbria: Paternoster Press, 1996
Teaching fishing and other myths
"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day….
Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."
On an international scale, this poignant proverb has moved hearts, opened wallets and enjoyed widespread popularity in relief and development literature. It correctly identifies the temporal quality of much aid work and demonstrates the need for development beyond the limits of most projects in relief situations. However, this little proverb carries with it inherent assumptions that need to be examined more closely:1
1. It assumes that education is the solution to the problem.
On 17th August 1999, tens of thousands of people lost their lives in Western Turkey as the result of a devastating earthquake. The devastation was not caused so much by the physical impact as it was by poor building construction in the earthquake area. The fact that San Francisco suffered an earthquake of a similar magnitude during the same time period and without loss of life was a painful contrast. Once the initial stage of relief ended, development organisations and foreign governments rushed to provide seminars and training on how to build earthquake proof buildings. These were poorly attended and met with lethargy and even scorn. Why? Turkish contractors know how to build earthquake-proof
buildings. A glance at the provincial building code in the earthquake region reveals a set of rules and regulations equal to that of California's strict codes. The problem is not lack of education - the problem is one of corruption. Profit has became a stronger value than safety.
2. It assumes that it is the outsider who knows the solution to the problem.
Servants in Asia is an organisation born out of a dream that the gospel could truly become good news to the poor. They are brutally honest in their report of their medical work in Manila, Philippines: "The poor asked us to stop our mercy ministries. They argued that much of what we
were doing for them was in fact causing relational and communal breakdown. In other words, the social effect of all our programmes was proving harmful. Our individual approach to health care, in choosing one person over another, was creating jealousy and misunderstandings in the community. Our top down approach was alienating the poor. They did not feel an active part of the health care in the community. They were simply beneficiaries of the process, not managers of the process. They had little to do with its implementation. This demeaned their spirit. So in healing some aspects of the body we made their spirits sick." (Nicholls&Wood 1996:183)
3. It assumes that the man can't live in his environment.
Obviously in this proverb, the fishing teacher has observed a body of water that houses fish and with it the possibility of fishing. By deciding that the man must be taught fishing, the fishing teacher has made the assumption that the man has been unwilling to adapt to his environment.
A similar situation happened in Kenya, where the Masai love to tell the story of Lord Delamare. While visiting in Kenya, he observed the rich grasslands north of Nakuru but couldn't understand why the Masai didn't graze their cattle there. Deciding to kindly provide an example, rather than patronisingly teach them, he spent a significant sum importing English cattle and turning them loose on those grasslands. It was only then that he discovered that the grass in that part of the Rift Valley lacks a key nutrient that results in poor milk production, resulting in the death of most of the calves. This, of course, was something that every Masai boy knew but was never asked. (Myers 1999:144)
4. It assumes that the supply of fish is sustainable.
There was a time in South America when nearly every family grew its own food. If a family went hungry, it was usually due to laziness or carelessness or possibly social evils such as alcoholism. But with the arrival of Western capitalism, the lure of possible wealth has drawn many of these families into growing cash crops such as coffee, cocoa or tea. When the international price of their crop goes down, these people go hungry. Much starvation in parts of the nonwestern world today is due to this phenomenon. Even though this example comes courtesy of multinational corporations, aid workers can produce the same result by the introduction of non-sustainable forms of economic projects.
5. It assumes that those who will be taught fishing (probably already the most poor and
disadvantaged of society) will have fishing rights.
As we have seen in the earthquake example above, corruption is likely a stronger force in a society than justice. And in an even more general sense, powerlessness is a key root of poverty. In urban situations in particular, the poor suffer not so much for lack of cash or goods but from marginalisation and economic exploitation. Because there is only a finite amount of wealth in any country, the powerful can monopolize a majority of it only by denying it to the poor. (Linthicum 1991:37) Development workers cannot assume that providing skills to the disadvantaged opens a door to economic freedom.
6. It assumes that the new fishers have enough economic power to be able to sell their surplus fish.
After all, man does not live by fish alone. Clothing, housing and utility bills, medical costs and other nonperishable goods and services must be obtained, even by those in the most rural of environments. Before teaching fishing, has a market for fish been analysed? If a fisher cannot sell, trade or barter for the other services and goods that he requires, skill in fishing is only a partial solution to his economic problems.
7. It assumes that the environmental condition of the lake will remain constant.
For fishers to keep fishing, there need to be fish! A community whose survival strategy is dependent on a body of water to provide fish in the quanitites to which they have become accustomed is threatened when that body of water can no longer endure the demands placed on it. And when survival is threatened, people generally compromise their values to ensure their survival. One example of this is child prostitution. It is not a value for most parents to sell their daughters into prostitution. However, "when their very survival is threatened, they succumb to this practice as a way of navigating through the moral dilemmas which with survival confronts them." (Bradshaw 1998:68) Shortsighted development work moving into a situation such as this can pinpoint child prostitution as a community value that needs to be changed when the "value" can actually be the effect of the compromising of survival strategies or of poor development work in the first place.
8. It assumes that their traditions allow them to fish..
AIDS workers are learning in many cultures the power of tradition within a society. Is the continent of Africa dying of the AIDS virus because of immorality? Yes and no. In reality, in many places they are dying because of tradition. For example, the people in the Rakai district in northern Uganda believe that a woman is married to a clan, rather than to one man. Therefore, a bride in this culture has sexual intercourse with all of her husband's brothers before she appears in public as a married woman. Development workers who try to discourage this practice have been accused of imperialism and the attempted destruction of the Rakai culture. Unnecessarily so because everyone between the ages of 15 and 50 in the Rakai culture is now dead. Tradition has also preserved famine, discouraged well and dam building and encouraged the starvation of infants in many cultures around the world. Tradition and culture are powerful forces that must be considered before the implementation of any development programme.
9. It assumes that the male in the society is the one who provides food.
The story of the Yir Yoront is a classic example of Westerners ignoring the effect of gender and social hierarchy on culture. In the 1950's, a group of well-meaning Western missionaries introduced steel axes to the Yir Yoront, an Australian aboriginal society. As often happens, it was the powerless of the society - the women and the youth - who had made friends with the missionaries and so they were the initial beneficiaries of these choice tools. However, in Yir Yoront culture, it had not previously been the women and youth who were empowered. It was the elders who kept the stone axes for the communal use of the tribe. There were well-defined
social patterns defining the process of requesting the use of the ax. The authority structuring of the tribe was based on this tradition and this began to break down because of the good intentions of the missionaries. Not only was respect and social structuring affected, but the increased amount of free time resulted in an increase in promiscuity and alcoholism.
10. It assumes that participation is not an important goal.
"Without vision, the people perish." (Prov 29:18) The Hebrew word 'para' translated here as 'perish' means also to be set at naught, to be refused, to be uncovered. And without participation, training and development is hollow, short-lived and lacking in sustainability. What kind of participation? Certainly there is the kind of participation that involves listening to someone present their plan and syllabus for Fishing 101. Real participation, in contrast, begins within a community identifying its own needs, analyzing its own risks and resources and running their own programmes.
--Pam Wilson
Operation Mercy
International Relief Coordinator
Notes:
1Many thanks to Bruce Bradshaw of World Vision and Starbucks for good conversation on this topic, accompanied by good coffee. Much of this article is an augmentation of Bruce's ideas.
Bibliography:
Bradshaw, Bruce. "Empowering Communities to Enhance Survival Strategies." Taken from Sexually
Exploited Children: Working to Protect and Heal. Monrovia, CA: MARC, 1998.
Linthicum, Robert. Empowering the Poor. Monrovia, CA: MARC, 1991
Myers, Bryant. Walking With the Poor. Maryknoll, NY: Orbis Books, 1999
Nicholls, Bruce J. and Wood, Beulah R. Sharing Good News with the Poor. Grand Rapids, MI: Baker
Book House and Carlisle, Cumbria: Paternoster Press, 1996
Monday, June 16, 2008
I Know What I Want...
God is truly amazing.
About four years ago we received a vehicle as a donation. It was a 95 Chevy Astro Van, and though it had an enormous dent in the front and three hundred thousand miles on the odometer, it was exactly what we needed. After all, our previous donated vehicle, a 75 Econoline Van, while having fewer miles on it, only got about eight miles to the gallon. Not exactly economical.
Over the years, however, the Astro began showing it's miles, if not it's chronological age. One by one, the doors refused to open until finally we had to take the handles off of the back doors and the driver's door was the only other one that opened from the outside. Seat belts began to break. And the engine itself would stall out.
We fixed what we could, but the cumulative effect was overwheming and too much for our budget. I knew that there was little to be done for it, and that the vehicle was quickly to give up the ghost. So I did what we always do when we have an issue we can't deal with-- I prayed. I simply asked the Lord for a new van, because the other one was soon to run out.
This last month, actually, has been a bit overwheming as far as donations go. We made a commitment to pay about 500 dollars a month for rent and utilities for partial use of a church, and, amazingly, our congregation has been able to cover the majority of this on their own. The amount of food we have been receiving the last few weeks has been overwhelming-- so much so that a couple of the people in the house have begun calling me the "food magnet". And we were invited to wander around a church building and to take anything we want, as it was to be leveled in the next week. So, all in all, it has been a good month. The Lord has provided amazingly.
Then I get a call from my conference minister, Duncan. He says that another pastor in the Mennonite Conference-- Rod, the pastor of another Mennonite congregation in Portland-- has gotten a call from a member of his congregation saying that they were looking for someone to donate their vehicle to, as they were returning to England. Duncan says that's it's a small Toyota, but we might use it. I was thinking that an economical car might do us some good, when we didn't have to drive the van, so I called Rod about it.
When I called Rod, I found out that the vehicle wasn't a small car. It was a van. With less than a hundred thousand miles on it.
Okay, perhaps my voice showed my excitement when I called the folks who owned the van, I don't know, but it was excactly what I prayed for. It is a practically new van, in excellent condition, even with a storage container that locks on the top. The gas milage is just a bit better than the Astro, but the most important qualities are:
The doors all work-- including sliding doors on both sides!
And the seat belts all work!
Isn't that wonderful!
God is just so amazing.
* * *
For those interested in the source of my title, it is from a Daniel Amos song called "A New Car". The lyrics are as follows:
"I know what I want
I know what I need
I know what I want
I want a
(Johhny from the Price Is Right says) A New Car!
"I'm one of the kings kids
(I want a blessing)
I'm one of the king's kids
(I want a blessing)
I'm one of the king's kids
I deserve the best
I want
A New Car!"
Obviously, the DA song is satire against Christians who think they can get what comforts they think they deserve by demanding from God as if He were some giant Santa Claus. I hope and pray that this isn't my attitude.
About four years ago we received a vehicle as a donation. It was a 95 Chevy Astro Van, and though it had an enormous dent in the front and three hundred thousand miles on the odometer, it was exactly what we needed. After all, our previous donated vehicle, a 75 Econoline Van, while having fewer miles on it, only got about eight miles to the gallon. Not exactly economical.
Over the years, however, the Astro began showing it's miles, if not it's chronological age. One by one, the doors refused to open until finally we had to take the handles off of the back doors and the driver's door was the only other one that opened from the outside. Seat belts began to break. And the engine itself would stall out.
We fixed what we could, but the cumulative effect was overwheming and too much for our budget. I knew that there was little to be done for it, and that the vehicle was quickly to give up the ghost. So I did what we always do when we have an issue we can't deal with-- I prayed. I simply asked the Lord for a new van, because the other one was soon to run out.
This last month, actually, has been a bit overwheming as far as donations go. We made a commitment to pay about 500 dollars a month for rent and utilities for partial use of a church, and, amazingly, our congregation has been able to cover the majority of this on their own. The amount of food we have been receiving the last few weeks has been overwhelming-- so much so that a couple of the people in the house have begun calling me the "food magnet". And we were invited to wander around a church building and to take anything we want, as it was to be leveled in the next week. So, all in all, it has been a good month. The Lord has provided amazingly.
Then I get a call from my conference minister, Duncan. He says that another pastor in the Mennonite Conference-- Rod, the pastor of another Mennonite congregation in Portland-- has gotten a call from a member of his congregation saying that they were looking for someone to donate their vehicle to, as they were returning to England. Duncan says that's it's a small Toyota, but we might use it. I was thinking that an economical car might do us some good, when we didn't have to drive the van, so I called Rod about it.
When I called Rod, I found out that the vehicle wasn't a small car. It was a van. With less than a hundred thousand miles on it.
Okay, perhaps my voice showed my excitement when I called the folks who owned the van, I don't know, but it was excactly what I prayed for. It is a practically new van, in excellent condition, even with a storage container that locks on the top. The gas milage is just a bit better than the Astro, but the most important qualities are:
The doors all work-- including sliding doors on both sides!
And the seat belts all work!
Isn't that wonderful!
God is just so amazing.
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For those interested in the source of my title, it is from a Daniel Amos song called "A New Car". The lyrics are as follows:
"I know what I want
I know what I need
I know what I want
I want a
(Johhny from the Price Is Right says) A New Car!
"I'm one of the kings kids
(I want a blessing)
I'm one of the king's kids
(I want a blessing)
I'm one of the king's kids
I deserve the best
I want
A New Car!"
Obviously, the DA song is satire against Christians who think they can get what comforts they think they deserve by demanding from God as if He were some giant Santa Claus. I hope and pray that this isn't my attitude.
A Note of False Humility
I just received the best compliment I could have possibly gotten.
Someone came to church yesterday whom I haven't seen for almost a year. Tom is a fairly wealthy individual, a committed Christian, whom I prayed for and talked with for a number of years. He would come to the services, discuss with me and the other homeless folks and ask penetrating questions about our ministry and the plight of the homeless.
Now Tom drives around Portland and Vancouver, with his trunk full of blankets, socks and jackets and scans the side streets for homeless folks, freely giving and openly inviting them to his church.
And he told me that he wouldn't be doing this ministry were it not for us and our work in Anawim.
That's just wonderful and I feel proud to be a part of God's work in Tom's life.
He also encouraged me to tell my story more. And I admit, I have, and this blog is part of letting people know how God has led us.
But I feel nervous, as well. It is as if I am boasting about the things that God has wrought. I don't want to enact the sin of Moses, taking for myself that which God has done. Sure, my wife and I made some tough choices in the past that enabled us to do the ministry we are doing.
But it isn't us, really, it's God and the people who have supported us. We are dependent completly on them and their faithfulness. God's power and work are so enormous that we can't possibly grasp it. Even with the small sacrifices and dependence we have shown, we have only scraped the surface of God's providence and grace.
It is wonderful to see others see us as an inspiration. But Jesus did it first, and better. I hope that we all look to Him for our inspiration.
Someone came to church yesterday whom I haven't seen for almost a year. Tom is a fairly wealthy individual, a committed Christian, whom I prayed for and talked with for a number of years. He would come to the services, discuss with me and the other homeless folks and ask penetrating questions about our ministry and the plight of the homeless.
Now Tom drives around Portland and Vancouver, with his trunk full of blankets, socks and jackets and scans the side streets for homeless folks, freely giving and openly inviting them to his church.
And he told me that he wouldn't be doing this ministry were it not for us and our work in Anawim.
That's just wonderful and I feel proud to be a part of God's work in Tom's life.
He also encouraged me to tell my story more. And I admit, I have, and this blog is part of letting people know how God has led us.
But I feel nervous, as well. It is as if I am boasting about the things that God has wrought. I don't want to enact the sin of Moses, taking for myself that which God has done. Sure, my wife and I made some tough choices in the past that enabled us to do the ministry we are doing.
But it isn't us, really, it's God and the people who have supported us. We are dependent completly on them and their faithfulness. God's power and work are so enormous that we can't possibly grasp it. Even with the small sacrifices and dependence we have shown, we have only scraped the surface of God's providence and grace.
It is wonderful to see others see us as an inspiration. But Jesus did it first, and better. I hope that we all look to Him for our inspiration.
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